i'm a strong person..

hiding behind this joy...
nobody knows what's inside my heart..
i'm really good at pretending..
i look fine from the outside,...
but inside..i was totally hurt..
accept the truth...
there's no more chance for me..
hoping for another person.. a better one..
to heal this pain heart...
God..give the best for me...
although i know..there's still a long journey for me..to reach my destiny..
God had planned everything..my fate..
all I can do now is..keep praying..
i want my heart that had never belong to anybody else since 18 years ago..
will be taken by a special person that really meant to be for me..
i'll keep being patient..
and..pretending..to be happy..n accept the fact..
so that,,,my heart will not suffer too much...
this kind heart..i have to care for it...
waiting for the right person...
slowly..a little bit..my love for someone that i like..and i know i wouldn't be love in return..
that love..will disappear..

GOD...give me strength..so,i can be strong for a long time...

I hope i don't fall in love when it's not the right time..

Ya Allah,
Andai masanya belum tiba,
Jangan izinkan aku untuk jatuh cinta,
Aku memohon agar Kau tunjukkan jalan,
Agar Kau tunjukkan aku tuntutun yang perlu aku lakukan,
Jauhkanlah aku daripada kemaksiatan,
Jauhkanlah aku daripada perkara yang tidak dapat memberi manfaat,
Dan jauhkan aku daripada perkara yang Engkau murkai,
Agar aku dapat menjaga diri.

Ya Allah,
Jika aku jatuh cinta,
Izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu,
Jadikanlah aku yang mencintainya kerana agama yang ada padanya,
Jika dia hilangkan agama yang ada dalam dirinya,
Maka hilanglah cintaku padanya,
Sesungguhnya, cinta yang suci itu tidak buta.

Ya Allah,
Dan jika dia mencintai aku,
Biarkanlah dia mencintai aku kerana agama itu juga,
Asalkan dia tidak lebihkan cinta kepadaku melebihi cinta kepadaMu,
Supaya cinta itu bersemi di lembayung keredhaan-Mu,

Ya Allah,
Jika ini bukan masanya,
Jika ini belum saatnya,
Dan jika Kau tahu kami belum bersedia,
Selamatkan kami,
Jarakkan kami,
Pisahkan kami,
Agar kami jauh dari khilaf yang merosak izzah dan iffah,
Agar kami tak mengundang murka-MU,
Agar kami dapat lebih menjaga hati,
Agar hati menjadi yang diredhai ilahi.

Ya Allah,
Andai dia bukan untuk ku,
Andai dia bukan jodohku,
Maka berilah ganti yang lebih baik buatnya,
Berikanlah dia insan yang benar benar terbaik buat kehidupannya,
Insan yang benar-benar mampu memimpinnya ke syurga-Mu,
Dan bantulah aku untuk memperbaiki diriku,
Agar aku kukuh dalam mencari cinta-Mu.

Ameen..

he's not for me..

Dear God...
i'm hoping for the best partner in my life...
the one that can accept me as who i am
if he's for me...show me the right path to be near with him
and..if he's not the one for me...keep a distance between me and him
i don't want to get hurt...
alone is the best way...
i can't hide this feeling anymore...
but trying to be silent...

"bila hati&perasaan kita shj yg inginkn kasih&syang dr org yg kita syang.Namun akhirnya kita langsung tidak dpt memiliki w'lau sedikitpun.

Itulah yg akn menyebabkan hati kita akn berasa trlalu pedih.. ;'( "

TO my PRECIOUS FRIENDS...

Cry when you want to cry.

Don’t purposely hold in your sadness

I’ll embrace you so that you can smile again

When you’re tired, I’ll lend you my shoulder so that you can rest for a bit

I pray no tears in your dreams

I know you’ll fly high in your life

Although this world tries to look at you with a small view

I can confidently say you’re the only one

Find your broken dreams again. Don’t say that you can’t

I will help you to make that dream come true

When you feel like you can’t breathe, close your eyes for a bit and think about your future

I play no tears in your dreams

I know you’ll fly high in your life

Although this world tries to look at you with a small view

I can confidently say you’re the only one

Uh I’ll protect you and stay by your side as tears flow

Just rest without any worries in my embrace

The sadness formed in your eyes that won’t fall

In your dreams there are rough dark clouds that don’t show but

you smile. Don’t hold back your hurt anymore

Just throw it high into the sky. I want to go towards the end now

Open up the wings that were folded away. Take my hand

Don’t cry again

I play no tears in your dreams

I know you’ll fly high in your life

Although hearts that changed coldly may not know you,

who is cooler than anyone, stay by my side. You’re the only one

I play no tears in your dreams

I know you’ll fly high in your life

CAN u SMILE??

I remember that feeling from long ago when I looked at you

I remember that time when I knew you, you knew me

I think about those desperate times when I wanted to be like you, hang out with you

but it's merely a memort that has passed by

And, can you smile

You want this

You hope for this

I can't seem to have you with only my heart

And can you smile

I said to leave

I said I'm Okay

It seems like I can give nothing but this to you in the end

I remember long ago when I received your heart

I think of those times when you were overflowing me and I was thankful

We came across a farewell when we loved each other most, when we were at out happiest

I couldn't hold you back beacuse you were overflowing me, beacause I was sorry

And, can you smile

You want this,

You hope for this

I can't seem to have you with only my heart

And can u smile?

I said to leave

I said I'm okay

It seems like I can give nothing but this to you in the end

And still, still in the end, still I...

but probably in the end, I still...

And still, still, in the end, still I...

But in the end, I still...

But I was suffocating from those frequent words of yours

You say with rage that my way of talking and actions make you lose your words, that they make your anger rise

On this violent night, the stars light up the sky, the moon shines, and you go steadily down your path

Stars and the night are coming, they're covered only by other stars

The moon always stays there

I will always be here for you, want you

my NAme..keep changing..huhu

hi...actually tgh countdown utk hbis sem..hehe
saje je tlis entri ni sbb trlalu bosan..just want to share..
bout my name...
since i was small...
different people..different names they will give to me...
in family i used to be called...ya...
n kwan2 bdk skolah rndh pun pggil mcm 2..xpun mcya..
sdra or kazen pggil ira..
bila dh naik skolah mngh..brtukar lgii
naddy la pulakk..ak trime je..
n then tmbul pulak mc chah..
haish..mmg bykla nm pggln yg brlainan..huhu..
bila msuk IPG..igt dh xde nma glrn lain..just nk stay ngan naddy je..
timbul la pulak..ada yg pggil nad...
tutor ak pulak pggil ak dhira..mmg bykla sgktn yg dbuat..huhu
kalau lctrer SS nadhiha...ak pun plik..knpe dia suke pggil cmtu..
lctrer LDS plg ak suke..sbb pggil naddy je..huhu
n skrg...ada yg pggil ayam..sbb ak suka mkn ayam..hua2..xdop motif lgsung..
and i just wondering..bilala smua org hnya akn pggil ak dgn 1 nma tetap?huhuhuhu




and tonight movie time with my classmates!!!yeah!!

trying out syria...didn't match me well...just got too chubby face.ahahha

                                                          last hangout for sem 1..hehe

komawoyo chingu ahh~~~

hello...
actually ak traser sgtla boring..
xtau dh nk buat mende..dsbbkan prut yg trlalu sakit ni..dan prlu brulg alik ke tndas..
waa~~jgnla mlarat smpai esok..huhu
ada assgnment es..mlasnyer ak nak buat..
nasib baik 2 je assgnment yg tggl..huhu
dgn critical analysis nyer..ak mmg rjin nk buat bnda 2..
btapa ak xde idea nk buat bnda alah 2..smpai sggup tulis entry mlm2 buta ni..haha
actually lam entri ni..ak nk bgtau..sal kwn ak..yg ak bru knal hmpir 4 bln...
slama ni ak mncri2 kwan yg bleh brsma ak lam sng n ssah..
and she really helps me a lot..komawoyo!!
i really appreciate ur kindness..smpai mlm2 buta sggup nk dtg blik aku..
wpun ak just skit prut..kau slalu tny ak dh mkn ke blum..chat ke tak..n slalu je nk tlg ak lam siapkan homework ak,,wpun kau mmg ada byk krja..huhu
and part plg best..kau suka sgt bgi ak copy citer2 korea..nsib baik hdisk kau dh ok,kan..blehla ak truskan aktvti copy mgcopy 2..hahak
ak mmg trhru dpt kwn mcm dia..wpun ak xdela rpat sgt ngan dia..huhu..
tpi skrg..nmpknyer..kami dh brtmbh rpat..dsbbkan prshbtn GD kau n seungri ak kan?hahaa
thanks Anis Afifah!!*ak suka pggil kau emon..hihi..nanti bln 12 ni insyaalah ak g kuantan..xsbr nk g ronda2 ngan kau..wpun  kau drive mcm F1..hee~~~
got to off rite now!!nyte...

GD kau n SEUNGRI ak..hahak..